Friday, December 28, 2007

Is it ok to say sometimes that life is not fair?

I know that "everything happens for a reason" and we must "go through trials to get blessings" etc etc...
but it sucks. It really sucks to see your now 2 month old baby so miserable and in so much pain. It sucks to watch him scream as he tries to go the bathroom. It sucks to watch his tiny little body contort in pain....to see and smell him vomit from his reflux and know how much it hurts him.

It really sucks. And I wonder what lesson I am supposed to get out of this?

I was talking to Shawn about it the other day. I told him "you know, as much as I didn't want to be pregnant in the beginning, you would have thought that I would get a nice happy baby to make up for the unexpected surprise"

to which he responds..."this is your payback" Thank you so much for making me feel like crap!

my immediate retort was "I don't think that Heavenly Father would do that!"

so then, what is the reason? I can't see it. And I hate what he is going through.

1 comment:

The girl who took out gluten said...

Sometimes life isn't fair. There is nothing fun about watching someone you love endure pain. I have had to do it many times. Every time though, I come out stronger and smarter than I was before. You'd think I'd be a genius by now...no such luck! Yes, Sometimes life isn't fair....That's when you need a friend, besides your husband who cracks me up in primary song time. Ask him it was funny. Lots of love to you today. Hang in there.